I'd thought "What can I do for free culture or free software?", but I don't have enough knowledge or skill to contribute for them. And I won't study what they need. So, I realize that if I'm not going to study anything, I waste my time thinking what I won't do.
When I won't do anything, punishing myself is nothing.
Then, I'll only do what I can do or what I will do.
I wish I would change the world, and it needs practical actions. I believe myself to be good only when I do something.
My practical action is donation, so after I did it, I'll commit myself to what I can do.
It means that I admit that I'm an ordinary person and not any expert. "I may become something someday," it's fear that my life may be nothing. I've spent my time in ignoring the fear. I created my site, but is only that OK? I still don't know, but if I'm not going to do anything else, what I do is the best.